" LOVE, is a DECISION, madam ! "

Am I really happy?
Before telling a word, I need to think! In a way think a lot!!!
I'm not happy! and the reason.............
I cannot find a place for myself here. Where should I actually belong ?
May me going into a bit deeper into myself, I'm not loved by any one !

NO, I'M MISTAKEN!

I cannot love others more than my self!
Which is I believe, should be the aim of every Christian- The followers of Christ- who has loved us/ still loving us, more than anyone/any thing in this world!
And why I cannot realize this love for me. Because its through 'others' He loves me. and if I cannot accept others or above all, LOVE others, I cannot feel His love in my Life! I cannot live His Love in my life!

And I remember, the powerful words which I have ever heard in my life told to me by my spiritual father,
"LOVE, by the way, is a decision, madam !"
I was in a way shocked to hear this! Is it a decision of ours, to love others?
Which is absolutely true and not sooo Easy to put into practice !

What we can do is TRY , TRY & TRY again!
And the practice makes it perfect!
Perfect & enduring LOVE like HIS!

And hence, 'LOVE is a decision'!

Passion FOR CHRIST !

'Il Quaresima'- The Lenten days!

Days of purification , reflection & penitence! These days made me think of the Passion of Christ! How brutally he was crucified ! But the reason - the very reason for his suffering- that count on us. I was watching the film Passion of Christ few days back, at the same time, was reading the prophecy of Isaiah about the 'The suffering and Glory of the Servant'- Is 53.

And for the 'first time' in my life, the passion of the Christ, has touched me or better 'Pierced' my heart like never before.
'His appearance was so disfigured, beyond that of any man and his form marred beyond any man'. Is 53:14.

Its just amazing how He influences people. Everyone, who have met Him, has been changed, has been converted. And the encounters were more intense for those who saw his 'PASSION'- on his way to the Cross. I remember the faces in the film, the lives which have been deeply touched, pierced by Him, by His sight, by his Words, by His passion...
And at the same time, how He consoled His mother, other women who were weeping for Him... Just Amazing! And what made Him do all these FOR US ?
I have believed or proclaimed so all these years, without knowing what he actually DID. Even though well educated in Faith , even though from a God fearing Family, like most of us, I too have taken it for granted.
But now, this moment, the life here, has made me feel His presence & LOVE for me! And now I realize why He did it for me & how painful it was- it IS - for Him.

Starting from the Gadzamen, from the soldier Malcus,the very TOUCH of Jesus, was a healing for him!
The dancer women in Herode's court, for her, just one 'GAZE' of Him was more than enough to realize herself and to bring an inner change.
Simon the bearer of the cross, went away weeping seeing the crucifixion of Jesus. What relation he has with Him? 'carrying the heavy cross' for HIM, may be for a few hours?Even that pain was enough to realize HIM!
The soldier-when he pierced Him with the spear, when His Blood & water sprinkled out on him, how he was transformed! With a micro second his eyes were opened, he went on his knee and the change was visible in his face. Just remembered the very first miracle of Jesus- changing water into wine. And here the wine- the blood of Jesus gushes out with water purifying Him.
Veronica, the women weeping over on the streets, the witnesses of the crucifixion, the thief on the cross, and the list goes on and on.............
"Blessed are the eyes that see what you see. For I tell you that many prophets and kings wanted to see what you see but did not see it, and to hear what you hear but did not hear" Lc 10: 23-24.

In my life too, I see many faces -of worries, of hatred, of jealousy, of lust, of depression & moreover I see all these faces in me too. And I think these were the same or much similar faces existed 2000 years back , which were CHANGED completely, when had an encounter with Jesus ! And the same faces exist today also, in me, and around me at the need of Change- the TRANSFORMATION!

And when I realize His Love for me, what can I do?
Lord, you have DIED for me! You have made yourself crushed every single bone of yours for me, for my sins!
What can I do for YOU?
I will give myself completely to YOU!
I will praise & adore YOU forever!
Will sprout out with joy like the nature did at your death & resurrection & will go out to the ends of the world, with the great Fervor to PROCLAIM you ,to WITNESS you!

And I will never be ALONE, as the one who have been abandoned by everyone is MY GOD!
I will never be SAD, as the one who have suffered the most is MY REFUGE!
I will never be PROUD, as the one who have humbled himself even to lay his life for me is MY TOWER!
I will never be AFRAID, as the one who have Risen form the dead is my LORD!
Lord, let your Words 'burn' my heart!
Let your Wounds heal my Life!
Let your Blood sanctify me!
Let me love you the most , to the maximum, till it hurts me !
Let your passion- PASSION OF CHRIST- help me to have a great PASSION for you.
A PASSION ONLY FOR CHRIST!